Moving is not fun

We have been in the Chicago area now for a month and a half.  Do I like it?  Not sure.  If I could pack up and head back to PA today would I?  Not sure.  There are moments when I have clarity and know that the future is ahead of me, not behind.  I am wired to cling to the things I know.  I DO NOT know this place.  I KNOW Allentown.  So, it makes sense that I would want to go back to my comfort zone.  I miss my beautiful friend across the street that made me feel like family ( you know I am tearing up right now).  I miss being known.  Last night was Emily's curriculum night at the Jr. High.  I had to to go alone because we had a conflict in the schedule with Zach starting driving school.  Jeff dropped me off at the school and I ventured in alone.  As I sat through a powerpoint in the gym from the Principal  and then wondered around the school following Emily's daily schedule, I knew not a soul.  And no one knew me.  I hate that!  I loved walking into the kids schools and having lots and lots of faces looking at ME, smiling at ME and knowing ME.

Friendships will come and someone will know me eventually.  I know this.  But last night, I was unknown.

When I registered Sam for school a few weeks ago, I had to put down emergency contacts.  I listed my mom and Jeff's mom.  Of course they both live in Florida.  We live in Illinois.  The sweet lady from the school that was looking over the forms said to me, " Are the emergency contacts you have listed able to get to the school within an hour in case of an emergency?"  I looked at her, laughed, and said "Pretty sure that is not possible".  So she asked it I had a friend I could put down.  I said "We just moved here a couple weeks ago and I have no one to put down but my husband and myself".   She looked over at me and siad "If you happen to make a friend, let us know and we will add them to the list."  I chuckled and said "Well, let's hope I eventually make a friend!"

Here is a first day of school pic.